Things are looking up !

Yes ! There's a reason behind this spicy make over my blog has just got. My life's goin' AWESOME ^_^. I mean things have been pretty swell, especially today !!!! Ok so firstly I got my name removed from the Detention List, courtesy of my AWESOME personality XD Then I'm getting a new laptop tomorrow, plus there's the Fresher's Party coming up. But none of these even come close to what happened today evening. At around 10.30 I get a text saying,"Hey ! hw r u ?" from an unknown number. When I texted back asking who it was, I got the name that made my day !!! YES !!! IT WAS HER ! IT WAS BLOODY MANJINDER !!!!! I spent the next 5 minutes jumping up and down with joy. Immediately my mind went to the conclusion that she's single again (since her boyfriend had forbidden her from talking to me), but now I think its too early to tell. Maybe she's lonely in the hostel and needed to talk to an old friend. Maybe....I don't know. She makes me weird :P She said she was reading a poem I had written for her back in 10th which made her text me. I still remember that poem like it was written 2 minutes ago. Ode To Her. But I won't share it. i guess some things are best kept secret. But thn again its giving me hope; Hope that maybe she has feelings for me. I don't know if she does, or does not. I really don't know anything when it comes to her. I guess I'm gonna let Fate play her part, let the pieces fall where they may. and then try to figure it out. I'm good at sorting chaos. I just hope, I pray from the bottom of my heart that she falls in love with me :P I mean, that isn't too bad a thing to ask for, right ? Anyway, its half-past midnight. i better get to bed before warden shows up. Plus I gotta get ready for the party too !!!!

Another face in the crowd.

College is different from school. I was (in)famous back in school. For good deeds, or bad, I always was in the limelight. Its different now. Its completely the opposite. I'm lost in the crowd, and to be honest, I'm starting to like it. It feels like 7th grade all over again. I wasn't always this over-active, reckless, center-of-attention entity that I am now. Wait did I just refer to myself as an entity ?? Whoa.

Anyway, I used to be very timid (yes even I can't believe I'm using that word). Then I met one of the most wonderful women I've ever come across in my life - Mrs. Aruna Batra, our English teacher. That woman single handedly flipped my life 180 degrees. Everything that's good in me today, I owe to her. I really wish she'd stayed in Faridkot, It would've been lovely to go meet her every now and then. Yes, I do miss Batra mam. But the values she taught me, I'll never forget.

Coming back to being un-pupolar - its comforting. I like sitting on the sidelines and watch the carnival. Its fun. Then again that affinity for trouble is too great. I've already started 2 mass bunks in 1 week. Its only a matter of time before they call my parents. But then again Mr. B(for Bunk) sounds like a cool nickname. I gotta start focusing on studies on, focused like a stone-cold Buddhist monk meditating in the Himalayas.....Ooh look ! That dog is totally gonna rip that squirrel apart !!!

UNCAGE THE ELEPHANT !!!!

I'm starting to feel that itch again. That itchy, annoying itch you get when you have a concept for a story but its really REALLY foggy :/ I heard that song, Monarchy Of Roses by Red Hot Chili Peppers and the idea of love ruling a life just stuck. But I just ended up staring at Taylor Swift's wallpaper until the battery ran dead. Which brings me to Taylor. I first saw Taylor in her video for Love Story and it was love at first sight... No, I'm not a crazy fan of Taylor, I L♥VE her. I have never witnessed such beauty, elegance, grace, poise, innocence all packed into one girl. Yes I do sound crazy, believe me I get that alot. Sometimes I wonder why I always fall for girls that won't even notice my existence. Which brings me to the elephant in the room, Manjinder.
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I don't even know what to say or where to start about this girl...Its like fate decided,"oh you know, this kid has gone through enough, and HEY ! you know what would be really fun ? If we just fuckin amplified his problems to in-fuckin-finity !". Yeah thats what EXACTLY what happened. I was never the same after that horrible night. I really thought we were meant to be, you know ? Like sometimes you just KNOW. I dont think I'm making much sense, but then again, I never plan to. We had grown up together, we were neighbors. We used to walk to school together and on the way back home, we always stopped for candies. And then one day in 9th, I finally realized she's the one. I still believe she is. She probably will. I've given up on this other girl I had plans of asking out. The truth is, I can't get Manjinder outta my head, and that won't be fair to any other girl I go out with. So I've decided I'm gonna wait, wait and hope she will leave that no-good asshole and finally say,"Manu, I Love you".

The things I'd give to hear those words.

I hate coming up with titles

Gooood morning CGC ! XD
Its a new week at college and man im pumped ! Also i wonder how everyone keeps sleeping past 7 am ???? I mean no matter what time I went to sleep, I just have to get up before 6.30 !!
Hmm....I guess 18 years of living under a strict dad could do that to a person. My dad should've been in the military, he would've fit the strict army dad cliche perfectly. I wouldn't say I hate my dad, but its everything except love. Growing up, I could never match up tp dad's expectations. No matter how good I did, it was always ''Ritu (my cousin sister) has scored more than you''. Then when I finally found out english was my strenght, that too wasn't impressive for him. I had to be good at the subjects he approved of - namely science and maths.
I remember when I cleared 10th, I scored 85% and to this day I still await a fuckin' heart-felt 'well done son' from dad. Come to think of it, even a fake one would do. But then again I don't need it anymore I guess. I've survived 18 years without it, I could squeese in some more.

Anyhoo, The Saint is really getting anxious to write. Personality Switch Time !!!!!!

Im really starting to fall for Tania. She just looks so unbelievably gorgeous, which also makes me wonder if all this is only physical and would it result into something meaningfull ?? Me, I want one of those relationships that stick till the end, you know ? Like getting married and having babies. My friends say I'm lame that way but they can all suck it. I'm tip-toing around the topic of my love life, but I guess I'll ignore the elephant in the room for a little longer. To my surprise, writing is kinda awesome way to vent xD
I think I should leave now. I fear the other egos will kill me if I take too much of our time. We're not supposed to stay on for too long, thats what makes Manu intriguing.
Until next time, godspeed and zinger burgers !!!!

Wait what was the topic again ?

Ahh....yes so I finally decide to come back on blogger (yesh ! for the 4th time to be exact !!). I don't know why I'm doing this or will I be doing this altogether :P But right now I'd like to focus on positive. I guess it'll help me in getting back on the writing wagon, and God knows I really need to get back to writing if I'm to save this last bit of insanity I have left. Yeah I feel Im losing that craziness I had 2-3 years back. Now I always think before making decisions xD.

Anyhoo, the new college is GREAT. It has a bigger campus, better cafeteria and ofcourse more girls :P There's this girl, Tanya - she's my lab partner and we really hit it off. She has good sense in general, doesn't talk non-sense like most big-town chicks. Anyway I really wanna ask her hout but there's soething holding me back. I won't discuss it now, thats for a whole another post (if ever !).

Well I gotta start packin up soon, I'm leaving for college in about 2 hrs. I don't really feel bad for leaving home but I miss mom's food while I'm away. But thats about it. I like the independence thats been showered upon me. I go stay at my friends' places at weekends and we party the night out ! I had never been to parties before, me coming from a REALLY small town where going on a party meant going out for dinner and being home before 9 :/ Yeas Im really glad to get outta Faridkot, I've met so many cool people in my college who are totally different from those narrow-minded hypocrites I came across in Fdk.

Well I can certainly see I've gone astray from the topic. Wait what was the topic again ? Hmm....I guess I haven't lost all my insanity after all xD

Till then, take care and DABAA WABAAA !!!!!!!!!